Sunday, March 25, 2018

A trip to Balung River, Tawau Sabah

And yesterday, we made the decision to go to Balung River. She suggested to me and I just... agreed with it. No question ask. I agreed with it thinking that I could use this chance to practice making videos using my new Glidecam. The video was completed recently, here.

Supposedly, we'll be going for breakfast at 7am, and then immediately shoot to Balung River after that. We ended up getting our breakfast sometime around 7.30am and shoot to the river around 7.51am. Welp. A little bit late...? From the area around Kubota Square, the drive took about 40 minutes to reach our destination.

The entrance fee was RM3.50. You'd have to pay at the entrance gate, on your right side.

Fortunate enough! We were literally the first one to arrive there! The place was still empty and there is no human pollution! ... yet. But still! I managed to get some good footage before a few other people started to come by.

Balung river was pretty nice. I can agree that the place was beautiful. I was in awe as we crossed the bridge to get to the other side.There was also a swimming pool there; the entrance fee is RM5 for adult and RM3 (if I'm not mistaken) for children. So you'd have a choice, whether you want to have a soak in the swimming pool or at the river down below. I, myself, prefer the river. Nature all the waaaaaaay!

My friend brought along a change of cloth since she really have a mind to do some swimming. Me? I didn't really think I'm going to swim, so... In the end, I did go in the river, but just to get some footage of the river. I'd went in up to my ankle only, haha. There are restrooms there where you can change your clothes. From outside, the restroom look kind of... ancient. Erm. If you're early, then you didn't have to worry since you'd be able to be the first one to use it... ?

I guess, the place was popular after all. As the sun started to reach even higher, and we were getting even closer to noon, more people started to fill out the place. By then, I already finished taking some videos and my friend already had a little swimming in the river, so all was well.

I noticed there was a barbeque place there. There was also a camping site at the other side. I didn't really stroll to the camping site, which now that I think about it, was a loss. I really need to start minimizing my regrets. Think about your life and try to remember... how many regrets have you collect? The things that you regret because you just didn't TRY. That's what I'm trying yo minimize. I'm rational enough to understand that I can't eliminate it once for all though, haha.

For food, you can bring your own or you can buy some there. It appears that they do sell some food; fried food, canned drinks, ABC, etc. I didn't buy any and I didn't bring any. My friend had thoughtfully brought some food, haha! I'm a parasite. orz

Sunday, March 11, 2018

Ranting like a brat that I am

Okay, sudah berhabuk habis blog aku ni. Mari kita kembali kepada menulis! Ayuh, asah kembali otak yang aku rasa semakin lama semakin mahu mereput ni!
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A little bit disappointed. A great feeling of being mistreated. Felt like I'm not being appreciated much. And thus these feelings bring me back to this platform. Let's give a silent shout-out here. I'm being a brat, but I supposed it had been long overdue. I am human after all.

I have dreams. I have my interests and tendencies. I have these things that I prefer to pursue. But I put it all aside in the name of a compromise. But as I looked back, I found out I didn't really tossed them all away. They exist as some little addition, here and there, from my secondary school period, all the way to my university's life.
I took art as one of my SPM subject.
I joined a video competition in my college life. I'd even made a music video using all these pictures I took during that period.
I took these art-related curriculum for my university's points; calligraphy art and painting class.
I joined these graphic departments for my school's cultural activities.

I still do, apparently, desire these... interests of mine. And now, I found out I wanted to pursue them so SO badly. I even invested some huge amount of money recently to dive deeper into this creative side of me. Let it all begin. I shall stop being afraid. I need to start.

I am tired of doing what others expect of me. Let me have what I want, now. As long as I do not put aside what Allah expects of me, I want to do my best by doing what I love more. I wish my being busy with this new pursue of mine, that I'd be able to leave any sinful things away from me.

Back to the reason why I'm returning. I wonder how they see me, really? I felt like a stone. Like... like these great, big things that I managed and achieved doesn't mean a thing. Why do I desire attention from humans so much? I am... apathetic. That's what I believe. I had BECOME apathetic, is really what happen. I wonder if that's the consequences of this... unfair amount of... attention? that was given. Probably.
You learn, then, that your reason for doing should only be for ONE. Should always be only for ONE. And once you stray, you feel it. Deeply.

Bersihkan niat. Bersihkan niat.
Ke mana hala tuju, tanya kembali pada diri. Ke mana... hala tuju?