Friday, August 24, 2012

Undergraduate student

Two months earlier, when I was about to take my final exam for this year, something quite like this had happened, lol. Remembering it now, oh fun, oh joy~

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Admittedly, I do feel lonely every now and then. Come that time, I find it quite depressing as I look around for anyone who actually cares. But it is foolish to even depends on humans. Humans have flaws, with exception for Allah's messengers. There are times I forgot, sure. But on times that I do remember -with guidance- I realize that He is always there. As a Muslim who believes, I know I am never alone. 

Ustaz Pahrol ada menasihatkan, apabila diuji, Katakan,  
"Ya Allah… sungguh sakit, sungguh perit, tapi apakan daya, aku hambaMu, Kau lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untukku berbanding diriku sendiri. Ya Allah, jangan Kau serahkan aku kepada diriku sendiri walaupun sekelip mata. Tadbirku seluruh dan sepenuh sujud pada takdir MU."

So, exam tersebut memakan masa lebih kurang 2 minggu. And what made it unacceptable? First week exam 5 papers dalam 5 hari berturut-turut! Needless to say, habis jer exam, keadaan aku macam nie:


Friday, August 10, 2012

This time around

بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِي

I was scared. I think I did it again. No, I know I did it again. 
It's funny how you know, yet you done nothing to change it. The word "it's easier said than done" never sound any truer before. 
I was scared, oh yes, scared... an understatement. 

But what is it if not another trial? 

I took a deep breath, and remember... Remember! Allah Maha Besar. 
Even dengan perasaan takut yang ditanamkan dalam hati manusia boleh become satu ujian kepada manusia. The fear. 
Be patient, for Allah loves those who are patient. And believe! Allah Maha Kuasa. 
Nothing can stop me from obtaining my provision pre-ordained by God Almighty. 

I sat there, near my friend, and relax. 
I know I did it again, but it's never right to give up just like that. 
I know I did it again, but I also know I've done what I can to compensate my mistake as much as I could. 
Time never wait for me. Oh, how I had waste it yet again. But... Jangan berputus asa. 
Aku serahkan segalanya kepada Allah, The All-Knower, The All-Hearer. 

Allahu Akhbar! 

Suprised me, oh yes it did. And how thankful I am, can never measure it. 
Oh, how I had made a mistake, but You never leave me. 
Such a beautiful feeling... I never want to miss it again.

The fresh feeling after that was amazing.
And yet He showed me again at times I would have never imagine, 
of how powerful He is. 
Surely, ujian akan datang dan pergi... 
But for this time around, as the last stressful days had past,
 I smiled.