This time around

بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِي

I was scared. I think I did it again. No, I know I did it again. 

It's funny how you know, yet you done nothing to change it. The word "it's easier said than done" never sound any truer before. 

I was scared, oh yes, scared... an understatement. 

But what is it if not another trial? 

I took a deep breath, and remember... Remember! Allah Maha Besar. 

Even dengan perasaan takut yang ditanamkan dalam hati manusia boleh become satu ujian kepada manusia. The fear. 

Be patient, for Allah loves those who are patient. And believe! Allah Maha Kuasa. 

Nothing can stop me from obtaining my provision pre-ordained by God Almighty. 

I sat there, near my friend, and relax. 

I know I did it again, but it's never right to give up just like that. 

I know I did it again, but I also know I've done what I can to compensate my mistake as much as I could. 

Time never wait for me. Oh, how I had waste it yet again. But... Jangan berputus asa. 

Aku serahkan segalanya kepada Allah, The All-Knower, The All-Hearer. 

Allahu Akhbar! 

Suprised me, oh yes it did. And how thankful I am, can never measure it. 

Oh, how I had made a mistake, but You never leave me. 

Such a beautiful feeling... I never want to miss it again.

The fresh feeling after that was amazing.

And yet He showed me again at times I would have never imagine, 

of how powerful He is. 

Surely, ujian akan datang dan pergi... 

But for this time around, as the last stressful days had past,

 I smiled.