Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Undergraduate student 1

Assalamua'alaikum warahmatullah...

People always say, kalau ya pun nak tidur, jangan tidur lama sangat! Hakikatnya, memang blog ni suka tidur lama kuasa dua pun. *senyum, senyum*


Anyway, this time around, nak share yang kami -stressed skit kat sini-, KAMI, student pharmacy memang belajar untuk menjadi ahli farmasi yang professional, generally speaking la. InsyaAllah, dengan izinNya.

Tetapi! Ya, that's right my friend, ada 'tetapi'nya...

Kami juga manusia biasa. Itu dia... Sebagaimana anda, anda, dan anda... Kami tidak sempurna. Oleh itu, tidak hairanlah apabila kami turut rasa berat sangat at certain time apabila terasa ujianNya begitu power. Subhanallah...

And. It's not that weird if kami pun turut ada masa gila kuasa dua kami! Masih budak la katakan (even if we're around two decades already... well.).

Identiti adalah dirahsiakan, beep!

Don't be surprise, but ini memang salah satu kemahiran special budak2 kami, hehe


Aku tenung dan tenung. Memang dah mabuk agaknya, tetapi tidak dapat disangka. Suatu masa dahulu, pernah kena sekali, terus nekad dalam hati "no more. never ever again.". 
Once bitten, twice shy. Something you cannot control... jadi sekali lagi, but in totally different way. More positive way, I'd say. More positive target. Tetapi tetap salah kalau macam ni cara handle yang dipilih. Salah. 

My finger hover on top of the button. Tenung lagi. Fikir sejenak. Boleh berdosa, tak mahu dah. 

Delete semuanya. 

Selamat tinggal. Ada jodoh, ada la jalannya. Wallahu'alam.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Spice of life

أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم

Keletihan yang melampau. Feels like I will drop any time now.

Ayat favourite orang tersayang never fail to appear come those times, "Memang kita hidup ini untuk letih!". Ya, mahu hidup senang and bahagia, di Syurga Allah sana. Subhanallah... 


A picture of a person in need... A saying that touch my heart, deeply...
"... because you are trained professionally! but they are not."
You are the one who can save them. It's your responsibilities.

Remove the other people present, my cheeks surely would've become wet.

Selama ini terapung entah ke mana, tersentak dengan hebatnya... Ya Allah!


Everyone has their own problems. Doesn't mean yours are more significant than theirs.
Put yourselves in the other's shoes... before you decide to burden others with what you assume is more important (to you only, that is).

"Oh... I'm sorry for you..."
"No, never mind... ! =)"

Really, I want to help you. You've become a beautiful drawing in my canvas of life.
Seek me, InsyaAllah, I will help you...


قولوا ما شاء الله يا رب تعيشوا احلى سنين
قولوا ما شاء الله يا محلى زوجين صالحين

ربنا يجمعكم ويا بعض في الجنة
ربنا يجعلكم طول العمر متفاهمين

Say : "Allah has willed it"
And may you live the happiest of years
Say : "Allah has willed it"
And how beautiful it is to see such a pious couple!

May Allah unite you together in Paradise
And may He make you live your whole life together in harmony

Credit to maherzaintube

All of you I've heard about and known, may Allah bless you. 

إن شاء الله‎

Sunday, September 23, 2012

DA's contest


As in the title, recently DA (that stands for deviantART, mind you) ada melancarkan Draw This Again contest. It's an improvement-theme contest, katanya. 

So, basically, we choose any one of our old drawings, and we'll need to draw it again to see our improvements! (can be either traditional, digital, or photography arts). Kemudian, letakkan side by side the old and the new drawings and submit it. Unfortunately, I can't join because I'd never upload my old drawings at DA... they're not satisfying enough for me to show the public. -malu, malu-

So! since this idea is very tempting, I'll do it anyway... and post it here instead. The left one I had drawn sometime around 5 to 9 years ago, I think. 

Aku tak pernah percaya kalau seseorang tu kata, "I'll never be able to draw". Lies. I've seen how I develop over the years (yes, it's not easy... but still), and I've seen new artists develop here and there. All it takes is the 1st step. And time, I suppose. Memang la mula-mula tak lawa, but the word 'practice makes perfect' exists for a reason. Memang tak dinafikan pasal 'talent', but 'rajin' tu lagi penting. Have talent but still take it for granted will take you nowhere.


Friday, September 21, 2012



Greyson Chance had sung a very good song, Waiting Outside The Line strikes me somehow familiar as a situation I often put myself into, walau macam mana rasa keberatan pun masa tu. It's good to be reminded sometimes that there are someone who cares out there.

You'll never enjoy your life 
living inside the box,
You're so afraid of taking chances
how you're going to reach the top?
Rules and regulations 
force you to play it safe,
get rid of all the hesitations,
it's time for you to seize the day!
Instead of just sitting around 
and looking down on tomorrow,
you got to let your feet off the ground
the time is now...

Try to have no regrets 
even if it's just tonight,
how you're going to walk ahead
if you keep living blind
stuck in the same position
you deserve so much more
there's a whole world around us
just waiting to be explored...

Teringat pula time muda-muda dulu, during my school year, ada satu lagu favourite ni. A Praise Chorus by Jimmy Eat World also give me the same feeling before, though the song does lean towards something a bit... haha. Depends on your understanding of the song. 

Are you going to live your life wondering, 
standing in the back looking around?
Are you going to waste your time thinking
how you've grown up or how you missed out?
Things are never going to be the way you want
where it's going to get you acting serious?
Things are never going to be quite what you want
even at 25, you got to start sometime!

Are you going to live your life
standing in the back looking around?
Are you going to waste your time?
got to make a move or you'll miss out!
Someone's going to ask you what it's all about
stick around nostalgia won't let you down,
Someone's going to ask you what it's all about
what are you going to have to say for yourself?

Ok, so apa pointnya di sini? In my opinion, pointnya adalah kita tak patut asyik menyibuk menyesal with our pasts. Maksud saya (ceh, 'saya'), apabila kita selalu fikir yang 'I should have done this, I should have done that' etc. etc... sampai kita tidak dapat fokus pada present time! 
#%@!!! (tolong jangan teka apa maksudnya...)
Apa, macam la kita boleh ubah masa lampau kan? Ambil sebagai pengajaran sudah, jangan sampai makan diri.
Seriously, kita hidup di dunia ni tak lama sebenarnya. Kenapa tak memaximumkan masa yang ada, yesh, sebaik-baiknya. Dok menyesal saja tak ke mana.
Mana saya (ceh, 'saya') dapat idea ni? Dalam buku Don't Be Sad by Sheikh 'Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarni, beliau ada mention kisah ni, tajuk-tajuk seperti 'The past is gone forever' and 'Today is all that you have'... Tambahan lagi, 'Leave the future alone until it comes'.
Tuan2 and puan2 boleh tgk2 kat sini,

Oh, point satu lagi, jangan takut gunakan peluang yang ada. 
"Baik, gunakan peluang yang ada! Lepas ni aku nak join semua aktiviti dekat U ni!! yes, hidup aku!!" eh, macam ni dah lain pula... 

Another note...
Uih, letih promote barang kat manusia yang lalu-lalang depan aku, tengok atas...
waaaah, suka this point of view.
Tapi si burung sempat lari...

Thursday, September 20, 2012

We are sisters

I'm happy to say that I was given a chance to know this one girl. She's older than me only by 2 years, but she's so wonderful.
 To keep her anonymous (and myself anonymous), this is not her. But that's how she appears, somehow.

What made our meeting special? She's not a native. Allah takdirkan kami berkenalan, Subhanallah...
This really strengthened my opinion on the fact that races never matter. Whichever countries we're from, whichever races we originates from, we are Muslims and thus we are sisters, Alhamdulillah.

And one fun fact is that there's some limited language-barrier between us, haha. There are times when one of us trying to express a point from deep in our heart and yet cannot because we have to communicate through our 2nd language (instead of each of our own mother tongue)... Come that time, it always become too funny and we would eventually laugh! 


Then, on another note...

Berbunga hati aku dengar nama 'dia'. Jangan sebut nama 'dia' boleh tak?

Interesting story I heard recently.
N has a friend, a girl. The girl like a boy, but never tell dearest friend N. N suspect though.
The girl really, really likes the boy. The boy also likes the girl.
Eh... typical, I know. But it's a true story!
The girl berdoa bersungguh-sungguh (kerana hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa and Maha Mengetahui). The boy also prayed it seems! (drpd apa yang dicerita la)
Then... wa-la!! Married!
Now? They're gonna have a baby! Oh, happy, happy. 
Moral? Jodoh ditangan Allah. Kalau mengadu ke 'dinding', apa dapat?
Mana tahu cerita ni? N cerita, yup.


Friday, August 24, 2012

Undergraduate student

Two months earlier, when I was about to take my final exam for this year, something quite like this had happened, lol. Remembering it now, oh fun, oh joy~

Click for larger view. ^^

Admittedly, I do feel lonely every now and then. Come that time, I find it quite depressing as I look around for anyone who actually cares. But it is foolish to even depends on humans. Humans have flaws, with exception for Allah's messengers. There are times I forgot, sure. But on times that I do remember -with guidance- I realize that He is always there. As a Muslim who believes, I know I am never alone. 

Ustaz Pahrol ada menasihatkan, apabila diuji, Katakan,  
"Ya Allah… sungguh sakit, sungguh perit, tapi apakan daya, aku hambaMu, Kau lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untukku berbanding diriku sendiri. Ya Allah, jangan Kau serahkan aku kepada diriku sendiri walaupun sekelip mata. Tadbirku seluruh dan sepenuh sujud pada takdir MU."

So, exam tersebut memakan masa lebih kurang 2 minggu. And what made it unacceptable? First week exam 5 papers dalam 5 hari berturut-turut! Needless to say, habis jer exam, keadaan aku macam nie:


Friday, August 10, 2012

This time around

بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِي

I was scared. I think I did it again. No, I know I did it again. 
It's funny how you know, yet you done nothing to change it. The word "it's easier said than done" never sound any truer before. 
I was scared, oh yes, scared... an understatement. 

But what is it if not another trial? 

I took a deep breath, and remember... Remember! Allah Maha Besar. 
Even dengan perasaan takut yang ditanamkan dalam hati manusia boleh become satu ujian kepada manusia. The fear. 
Be patient, for Allah loves those who are patient. And believe! Allah Maha Kuasa. 
Nothing can stop me from obtaining my provision pre-ordained by God Almighty. 

I sat there, near my friend, and relax. 
I know I did it again, but it's never right to give up just like that. 
I know I did it again, but I also know I've done what I can to compensate my mistake as much as I could. 
Time never wait for me. Oh, how I had waste it yet again. But... Jangan berputus asa. 
Aku serahkan segalanya kepada Allah, The All-Knower, The All-Hearer. 

Allahu Akhbar! 

Suprised me, oh yes it did. And how thankful I am, can never measure it. 
Oh, how I had made a mistake, but You never leave me. 
Such a beautiful feeling... I never want to miss it again.

The fresh feeling after that was amazing.
And yet He showed me again at times I would have never imagine, 
of how powerful He is. 
Surely, ujian akan datang dan pergi... 
But for this time around, as the last stressful days had past,
 I smiled. 

Saturday, May 19, 2012

For my heart always cry...

بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

You're never alone.
Allah is always with you. 
Allah is always with me.
Allah is always with us.

Ilmuku sebenarnya teramat cetek.
tidak cukup, tidak cukup.
Ya Allah,
semakin aku mencari ilmu,
semakin aku tersentak...
Sedikitnya, sedikitnya...
Apa yang aku tahu sebenarnya?

Berikanlah kekuatan kepadaku, Ya Rabbi.
Hanya dariMu,
Hanya untukMu.
AgamaMu sangat suci, Ya Allah.
Sangat indah.

Kenapa masih lalai?
Kenapa masih lalai?
Aku umatmu, ya Rasulullah!
Aku umatmu, Insyaallah...
Kenapa masih lalai? 
Kenapa masih lalai?

RasulMu sangat mulia, Ya Allah...
Aku mahu mencintaiMu, aku mahu mencintainya...

The heart that always cry,
only You know.

Note: Click the pic for larger view. ^^

Thursday, May 3, 2012

The beauty of nature

بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

"Whose is the kingdom this Day? [Allah Himself will reply to His question]: It is Allah's - the One, the Irresistible!"
(Qur'an 40: 16)

 The bird was watching me. =)

This is a millipede? A different colour than the red one? 

Oh, I am amazed by this one. I've never seen this insect before...To accidentally saw it while resting under a shady tree, it's beautiful.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Why not?

بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم


The question here is "Why?".
Why people do not appreciate what they already have?
Why people always go with "If only i have that", "If ony I'm like that", "If only I was given that."
What is it with all the IFs. 
Why not see something that already in your hand? In your possession? 
That already with you.

Do you not see
while you are coveting something that some other people have, 
Somebody else is coveting what you already have.
You have freedom, you have peace, you have money, you have food & water, you have clothes, you have a shelter, a house, you have a vehicle, a computer, you have books... 
You have your family.
You actually have a lot.

Do you realize out there how many people are dying from not enough food? 
Do you realize how many out there does not have any facilities to make their lives simple? 
how many out there lives in the dump? how many out there walk with barefoot? 
how many out there in danger?
No family, no friends, 
No shelter, no protection.
No saviour. 

Do you realize any of this?

Then, why not appreciate? why not think for a bit? 

We are chosen to have all of this. الحمد لله
but not for your own luxury... 
why waste, when you can give what you don't want to those who need them. 
why complain, when your life is not a hardship compare to others.
Why not share, when you have too many. 

Why not appreciate?

Ya Allah, The Almighty... 

They, who does not have some benefits, are being tested. Diuji dengan kesusahan dan kesabaran.
We, who've been given some benefits, are also being tested. Kita diuji dengan segala kemudahan yang kita ada. Kemana harta-harta itu dibelanjakan? 

But then, this is what humans perceived.
We know not what Allah knows.
Oleh itu, bersyukurlah dengan apa yang kita ada,
Sesungguhnya semuanya, in truth, adalah milik Dia. 

أستغفر الله 

"And if you would count the graces of Allah,
never could you able to count them."
(Qur'an 14: 34)

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

In disappointment


Sesungguhnya, Allah Maha Mengetahui segala rahsia yang ada di langit mahupun di bumi. 
Setiap segala sesuatu yang berlaku adalah dengan izinNya... 
Andai kata aku merancang sesuatu, Insyaallah, berjalan atau tidak perancangan itu semuanya di tangan Yang Maha Esa. 
Bagaimana pula dengan perasaanku? Yes, it's all the same. 
There is no other than Allah which I can depend on completely, Allahu Rabbi. 
When I know Allah is always with me, aku yang hanyalah seorang hamba yang sangat lemah ini akan merasa seperti terbela. 

Situasi yang kuhadapi ini, is very unexpected. And within the unexpected, my heart soar high for what if... What if...
 tetapi, Ya Allah, hanya Engkau Yang Maha Mengetahui... 
All the good comes from You... and all the mistakes are from me. 
Pedihnya hati apabila apa yang diharapkan tidak kesampaian, tetapi kalau memang untuk kebaikan sendiri, aku pasrah. 
Hati memberontak, tetapi kuatkan diri untuk yakin ada hikmahnya. 
For all the 19 years of my life, I know that there is always good thing(s) behind all the painful memories I've been through. 
I'm the one who perceived those experiences as painful and bad, when they were actually the most wonderful things that Allah had decided were proper and good for me. 

For those who feels bad out there, remember, we are never alone. 
Berpeganglah dengan jalan yang benar, Insyaallah, you will never be blind.


Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Turning Point

The beauty of life, I had never notice it before. 
One has to be on the right path to do that. To appreciate, understand, and be humble. 
We will never know when the fated day will come, but we are told to be aware of it. 
Never forget, and you'll be fine. 
Never turn your back on it, and you'll be fine.